Young and full of running.

Tell me, where has that taken me?

Just a great figure eight or a tiny infinity?

Jamaica. One thing on my mind, Money.

Mission trip is in 57 days.

I have a lot of money to raise by then.

Plus donations.

Ah prayer for this is much needed.

So many thoughts have been consuming my head this week, but I can definitely tell you this semester has been going so much better this time around. better friends, better situations, no pressure. I just love it so much more and I am making friendships with so many new people.

Have I been listening for what God is calling me to in 2010?

Well, I'm trying. Prayer has increased this year. So much can come from prayer.

Peace. Signing out. Neff.

New Expectations

Hi. Hey. Howdy. Hello.

2009 is gone. 2010 is here. Where is my life going? Since when am I starting my second semester of college? I thought I just started high school.

Life really goes to show that it really can not be what you expected. Just a few months ago, I was heading to Mizzou, about to join a sorority, rooming with whom I thought would be one of my "new best friends" and completely sure about my major.

Now here I am, decided greek was not for me, moved floors, have a huge group of friends (practically my entire floor), and been rocky about meteorology.

God can shake you up and break you down.

My mom used an interesting analogy today I perticually enjoyed.

She Said:

"I envision you as a vase in God's hands. This semester, He smashed you to pieces with all the trials. As you are learning things through all of this, He is picking up the pieces of you and building a brand new vase with a more beautiful design then before."

It has definitely been a difficult semester and I would NOT go back and redo it if someone paid me to, BUT I am glad it happened. It taught me things I never knew.

So as this year begins, I challenge you, yes you, the reader, to look at what God is envisioning for you. Is it what you expected?

Peace. Signing Out. Neff.

Mizzou-Rah.

College.
One word. Different.

College life is so different then i could have ever expected it to be.
I'm already home, sick, missing a whole week of school.
Someone tell me what that is? I do not really know.

Obsessions:

1. Holga 135bc Camera. Give it to me now.

2. Fisheye Lens. thats all.
3. My life is suddenly dedicated to buying the 600 Polaroid film on ebay. I've been bidding for days now. I promise you it will be mine.

"If I find in myself desires which nothing in this world can satisfy, theonly logical explanation is that I was made for another world
-C.S. Lewis

Face in the Crowd

How dare you? I ask again, How dare you?

How dare you betray those you love? Why would you push then pull then push then pull?
Explain how this makes sense to you? The questions keep on flowing, yet they never seem to be answered. Your heart jumps, your heart falls. Sorrow is overflowing, yet that small ounce of joy seems to be enough for now.

You run and run and run and run, but what are you running from?
It's a constant flow of anger running through your fingertips.
So what am I running from? I keep searching for the same answers.


This is it. Nine Days of High School.
The day has finally come! The day I have been waiting for all freakin' year!
But I'm scared now that it is down to the final days. Where does my idenity lie?
I've always gone to this small school where everyone knows me, and I know everyone.
Next year, I'm just another face in the crowd. One of thousands. I am gonna have to work hard
to stand out, but How hard am I willing to work?

Bad at... life?

Alright, I really do enjoy posting. I mean look at all the post I have completed!!!
But I actually really do want to be more updated with my blog. It's somewhere where you can express yourself.. which is definitely something that I wish I could do more often.

Everyone always say.. Oh, I see you have a blog. and I always say... Oh you see how i do not write in it?

My last post was all about fall, and guess what... it is almost spring. And may i say its about time for spring to arrive.. I can not wait for it more than ever. It's creeping up and pinching at my saying hey i'm almost here, but you can't have me yet.

It gives you that fresh new start feeling, like everything that once was is gone and dead; and new life is starting again. It's give us hope for tomorrow ya know? But now as I have actually completed another post, I hope to be seeing you soon my friends.

The Next Season.

I guess I'm kind of new at this.
There are just so many things I could talk about.

So, let me ask you this. What are the things you appreciate about this time of year?

Oh..Me? Well...

• I just love those things called scarfs.
• I love the leaves. They turn such pretty colors.
• The feeling of Ah.. yes it is gonna be cold soon, which soon means the start of a new year.

Have you ever felt like you just want a new year to come so you can start over?
I do, almost every day. 2008 has just been a harsh year ya know?
I feel like I could just learn to pour my heart out into this. I see why people just love to blog. :]

I got my senior pictures done, finally. They are just awesome... preview?


They were done by Michelle Ross. She owns Under Grace Photography.

Continue loving Fall... :]